The Rolfe's Virginia Chapter 2010

Our little Family

Family & Friends

To all the family that loves and supports us, to all the friends we have made along the way...........Thank you, we love you and miss you more than you know.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Wishing I could freeze time~~

I wish I could just slow everything down. Our little girls are growing up too fast. Today as we sat on the couch all snuggled in a blanket watching "Dino Dan" together it dawned on me that I am their favorite person to be with. To them, Mommy and Daddy are everything (please realize Daddy hung the moon and when he is here, I am second). Some days like today make me think of the not so distant future, when other people in their life will begin to take our place. As I was holding my babies and smelling their hair, and kissing those sweet little faces, it dawned on me how truly lucky and blessed I am to have them !! Happy, healthy angels that just want to hang out with me and Daddy !

Maddie will start school soon and I cry almost daily when I realize how much I am going to miss her little face and her sweet voice. I am angry and resentful that I have to share her, she is mine. I am sure other Mom's have felt this way too and I know she is ready, I am not sure I will ever be.

How can let her out into this big mean world? Will I have given her all the knowledge and strength to be a good person and to trust the right people? When she was a baby this never really bothered me because I never, never let her out of my sight !! But now I worry. I worry. But, that is the job of the Mother. Wearing your heart outside of you body.....and trusting that you have taught them well.