I wish I could just slow everything down. Our little girls are growing up too fast. Today as we sat on the couch all snuggled in a blanket watching "Dino Dan" together it dawned on me that I am their favorite person to be with. To them, Mommy and Daddy are everything (please realize Daddy hung the moon and when he is here, I am second). Some days like today make me think of the not so distant future, when other people in their life will begin to take our place. As I was holding my babies and smelling their hair, and kissing those sweet little faces, it dawned on me how truly lucky and blessed I am to have them !! Happy, healthy angels that just want to hang out with me and Daddy !
Maddie will start school soon and I cry almost daily when I realize how much I am going to miss her little face and her sweet voice. I am angry and resentful that I have to share her, she is mine. I am sure other Mom's have felt this way too and I know she is ready, I am not sure I will ever be.
How can let her out into this big mean world? Will I have given her all the knowledge and strength to be a good person and to trust the right people? When she was a baby this never really bothered me because I never, never let her out of my sight !! But now I worry. I worry. But, that is the job of the Mother. Wearing your heart outside of you body.....and trusting that you have taught them well.